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the title says it all babes~

it's the first time ive ever fallen so hard for someone.

and for this first time, i was let down.

it's because, i let myself open up, seeing and *assuming that there was hope.

but i was wrong.

those signs, were all lies.

it was all only just a game for you.

it's really fun huh, messing with my feelings?

telling me you like me but on the other side, saying you love someone else.

and plus, you dont do this silently but openly for me to see.

This is total BS.

It’s not nice.

I never thought that you were this kind of person.

You have no idea how much this hurts.

At times, it just tears me apart.

But you'll never know how much pain i felt.

Don’t give people false hope.

Or was it not false hope in the first place?

It was all just a game for you.

Taking in the attention you were given, well who wouldn’t like it if someone liked them.

What can’t you just tell me, no.

And not go on causing me misery?

Im a human being with feelings.

Not just a toy with any heart.

But I’ve gotta be strong.

Breaking down for something like this is not worth it.

To me, you’ll never be the same person I knew before.

I thought I was someone dear to you.

And that you would just tell me the truth to stop loving you and move on.

But you didn’t and I believed it still could be.

And then you wouldn’t.

But this time, I realized, after all the pain and misery, that this was all just a lie.

you've found someone else and i shouldn't impose.

Now, everything’s so clear already.

Even someone blind can see.

it's just a fact that this love is one-sided.

and nothing can be done.

so be it.

Now, my faith in you has gone to the dumps.

And when the time comes when you finally get together with her,

I know I wouldn’t be able to handle it.

So, I’ve gotta brace myself for the worst.

I need sometime alone, to forget about this.

To forget about you.

Although I will miss you, I will somehow move on.

And find someone better.

Someone who would make me proud to have him by my side.

Someone who would show me all his love and not have me begging.

Someone who need me not to even try.

Someone who wouldn’t make me cry.

So when that time comes, hopefully ill have someone new in my life.

And that someone would be light to a happy future.

After all, im not JUST a girl.

Im ethel, and you know I deserve more than this.